Being in the Urbana-Champaign area for several months, I’m more and more used to the lifestyle here. While I spend most of my time in classes, practicing in Smith Memorial Hall, or in my apartment; I have found some wonderful places for relaxing in my free time.
During the break, I did some serious reflection on my time here at this university and the remaining time I have. There were many reasons why I wanted to transfer into Music Open Studies from Lyric Theater but there was also some hesitancy. As a current junior, I was worried that changing my major so late in the game would make me track back to the beginning, but after having the important discussion with the advisor, I realized how much I wanted and needed it.
Yesterday, I bumped into another flutist on my walk home from the English Building. I asked her how she was doing, and she said that she was okay, but nervous. She was nervous for her upcoming studio performance, and wrestling with performance nerves. She shared with me that she knew it was going to be fine, but that her doubts kept clouding her practice time and preparation. And as I listened, I was able to reflect on my own journey with performance nerves. But there are a few things I didn’t know that I wish I had, when I was going through this.
It is my pleasure to be a pianist in the wind orchestra. Not only do I have a chance to get to know many wind ensemble repertoires, but I gain more experience in playing the piano in a large ensemble. Through rehearsals, I have found some ways for a piano, a somewhat “isolated” instrument, to fit in the whole orchestra.