Getting Back Into It
For the past year and a half, COVID has heavily impacted our way of life, particularly as students. I am very fortunate that we have in-person classes once again and that the university is taking careful precautions to ensure that COVID will not hinder that. I was lucky to be able to experience college life my freshman year before all of this happened, but now that we’re back in person, it seems that the transition happened way too fast and we as students have to keep up with it.
As a performance major, it has been difficult with the amount I have been singing to, once again, get used to using and to be auditioning as usual. My current situation has also made it even more difficult, as I haven’t performed in production for two years and wasn’t able to fully grow as an artist during that time. While it has been difficult, it does ease the stress when other students mention how they feel the exact same way. There is something about knowing others are suffering in similar ways to you that makes it easier.
After these two years, I have been cast in the production of Into the Woods as a named role in the story. It was intimidating to be back in the rehearsal setting for a production as a named role; imposter syndrome was very much real but reminding myself that while it has been two years of the lack of this exposure, I was cast for a reason and that this part of me is still there and willing to continue to learn and flourish. It’s hard to not get into your head, mostly as a performer, but when you start trusting yourself, beautiful things start to happen. I’ve come to trust my instincts and let my body and mind do their thing.